Life is funny sometimes..

It's interesting how often we go through life waiting for something to happen and we put ourselves through so much worry and stress at the time but when it actually happens we almost expect it. I'm learning right now to just allow different events in my life to just happen. I figure that whether I worry or not, I will ultimately yield the same results. In the end, we are all human and it is in our nature to want the best in our lives even though many times we become desparate and take the first thing that comes our way rather than waiting for what we truly desire. I wish I could train myself to not be so anxious and see things through with a clear mind. I will be attending the University of West Florida this Spring and I am pretty excited about the possibilities. I am ready to complete my classes and get my degree finished so I can get out into the real world and begin my career. As I wrote the previous sentence, I think in my mind "But when I get to that point, what next?". I feel like my life is full of those questions lately. What will be my next move and what kind of fulfillment will I gain from it. I think too often we conjure up a glamorous picture of what the future holds but we don't think beyond that. We don't think about the fact that life often doesn't go exactly the way that we plan. We shouldn't place all of our eggs in one basket so to speak. I guess this blog has proven how human I am in that I tell myself not to worry but I constantly wear my mind out with questions of what will happen now and in the future. I always wonder if I will always be around this town, close to my family or off somewhere in another city or country for that matter. I have tried to keep a central theme throughout this blog but essentially I am writing about many of my thoughts and ideas that I have had recently. I apologize if I have found myself traveling along a rabbit trail but this is where I am in my life. I feel like I am at a crossroads so to speak even though I know what general direction I should be going in. I know I need to take classes, try to make good grades, and finish school so that I can show future employers how qualified I am with a simple piece of paper. I guess we will just have to see what happens next.

I know it's been quite a while since my last blog but I was inspired to let you guys peak into my life as of late. It has been about a month and a half since my bilateral hernia surgery and everything has gotten back to feeling normal again. I am still thankful to God every single day that I am alive and healthy and have been blessed with all of my friends and family who are so incredible. I feel so horrible at times of how much I take advantage of how good I truly have it. My parents love me so much and allow me to live at home still so I can save money and not worry about financial stresses. I have friends who are there when I need them. I consider myself to be the luckiest guy in the world much of the time. I think the only thing that could make it better would be the right girl to come into my life. I get so discouraged much of the time because I get impatient and I am so used to getting things when I want and I know that I can't force finding the right person for me. I know that people say that you will find the right person in Gods right time but it gets hard from time to time. I know that I shouldn't feel like I "need" someone to make me more complete. I just need to let nature run its course and focus on what God would have me do in the mean time. I have much to look forward to in the Spring with UWF and focusing in on college and finishing my degree. I also want to be able to concentrate on sharpening my craft in music by practicing guitar, voice, and songwriting. Im ready for an increase in my talents and abilities. Ultimately, I want to continue living a fulfilling life that constantly challenges me to grow as a human being and a child of God.