So much to do..

Today was my first day as a soccer coach for a U8 soccer team and it was a lot of fun. I really enjoyed working with the kids and showing them valuable skills that they will be able to use to play soccer. I also had practice tonight at The River which was really productive but fun at the same time. Daniel, Hale, Jason, and I jammed out tunes such as "Chick Magnet", "Santa Monica", and " Joker" to name a few. It made me want to be in a jam band for a moment. I just got home not too long ago and had to e-mail all my soccer parents to give them the downlow on all the soccer info. Being a soccer coach has made me much more organized and task oriented which is a good thing. I think having a chaotic life right now makes me have no other choice but to be organized and responsible. I am currently taking two classes at PJC on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I work Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and Saturday. I have math tutoring on Tuesdays. I have soccer practice and River Rats practice on Thursdays. I have games that I am coaching on Saturday mornings. I lead worship for one church on Sunday morning and come home to sleep for a couple hours to be practicing at another church right after a nap. I have a hectic life at the moment but I believe I can get through it all. It seems like a neverending cycle but it will be over soon enough. I am just excited about being done with PJC. Next semester will be my last semester and then I am off to UWF to take classes I genuinely care about. That's my life so far at this moment in time. I will update you all on my next blog!

It's so late and I have to be up so early..

How is everyone doing? I am doing pretty swell. I am not able to sleep though because my sleep schedule has been so messed up. It's all good though. I have some recent news on my girl situation. I am really bummed but I don't feel like at this moment and time she wants to be more than a friend. Even though I feel like she is an incredible girl, I know that I have to wait and see what happens. Maybe there will be a time later when things might work out in the direction of a possible relationship but right now I am getting the friends zone vibe. I find myself constantly having a weakness to girls who get very comfortable around and become very flirty. I usually take that as signs of a possible connection with that person when in actuality it is just them being "friendly". It sucks because just a moment ago I was watching a movie and trying to go to sleep and I automatically thought back to the ride home from Orlando when we were cuddling and everything was incredible. We were so close in my memory but now we are so far away. I guess I just gotta be strong and let nature take its course. She might be the right girl or there might be another girl who will come along who is perfect for me. Only time will tell. On a lighter note, I am pretty pumped about this semester. I am one step closer to leaving PJC with my two year degree. I am also super excited about being a soccer coach. I am praying to God that the parents of my kids are awesome. I am really concerned also about being a good coach to the little kids. I want to be able to provide them with the proper way to play the game and have fun with it. I think everything will work out and be amazing though.

Update from the previous blog

How is everyone out there? Well, I have more to update you on with my situation. The girl I work with who I really care about is going through a lot with her good friend being involved with her ex-boyfriend. It's a fun(heavy sarcasm), little dramatic love triangle going on. Part of me thinks "well, who cares. You both are done, now is the time to move on with other relationships." and another part of me is "That's messed up because your really good friend never really came to you and asked if it would bother you to date the ex-boyfriend". I personally feel that on the ex-boyfriend's behalf that it is a down grade. The friend is a good girl but I don't really feel like they go together. Meanwhile, I am on the outside caring a lot for the ex-girlfriend who doesn't really want a relationship right now. It is never awesome to be the person who would do anything for the other person that doesn't really feel that way. Her body language has told me that she may not be interested in me but I am just going to continue to be there for her like a good friend should. Who knows, maybe she could be the right girl later on down the road or maybe there is another girl out there who more compatible and feels the same. I felt like there was a spark on the trip but maybe I was mistaken. Maybe the spark is a precursor of things to come. Who really knows what the future will hold. All I can do is go with the flow and see what happens. This situation at the moment reminds of that song "I can't make you love me". I have been listening to way too much soft rock at work. I will update you all on what happens. Take care!

A night out on the town..

Today has been an adventurous day. I woke up around noon time and lounged in bed. I then watched a little tube and took a shower. Work tonight was pretty hectic because we have a brand new guy and there were only two other people besides me working. After work, I drove downtown to Seville Quarter. I was saddened to see that my friend Carter was not DJing but it was all good. I saw my good buddy James and Garrett and hung with them for awhile. As you know from a previous blog, I have been falling for a girl I work with who was there at Seville dancing with her friends. I have felt different ways for different girls but she is different. I could have talked to other girls but I just didn't have any desire to. She is the one I am after. She is the one I think is awesome and amazing. The sad part of it all is that I feel some kind of loyalty to her. Even though we are not in a relationship, I don't really have the desire to have my eyes on any girl except for her. Sometimes I feel like we could be more than friends and then other times I get the vibe that we are back to the same old same. Everything within me wants to tell her how I feel about her. How I think she is amazing and incredible. I feel like if I do tell her, I will only freak how out. I want to send her sweet texts and call her all the time but I have to hold myself back because I don't want her to not be comfortable with me. Another thing that is different about her is that I start singing sappy love songs. These random songs pop in my head when I think about her. I catch myself singing Savage Garden and Backstreet Boys. I am like "WTF". Why the heck am I singing "I want to stand with you on a mountain and bathe with you in the sea". I guess I am just a hopeless romantic. When I care about someone, I feel like I put all my energy into that person. I find it odd that usually when I am attracted to someone, I often still notice other pretty girls. With her, she is the only one my eyes want to look at. She captivates me. Now I am thinking of the song "I only have eyes for you..". I am a mess. On another note, I can't wait till I can start DJing. The party this Saturday is going to the bomb-diggity. I hope people will dance and have an awesome time. I will update you all later with the girl situation. Take care!

Another day in the life of Willy J..

I just got back from Orlando on Wednesday and had a lot of fun. I went down to Universal Studios/Islands of Adventure with some friends from work and it was a blast. While I was there, I managed to get close to a friend of mine. She is an incredible and amazing girl who I have been thinking about a lot lately. We were really affectionate toward one another but I just am not sure if she feels the same way I do. Another situation that sucks is that I am really good friends with her ex-boyfriend so if anything were to happen then that might be awkward. For some reason, I do not feel as though it would because things seem to be good between the two of them. I just think she has amazing qualities. She is probably the sweetest girl I know. She is gorgeous, super intelligient, caring, and the list goes on. I loved running my hands through her soft hair and watching her as she slept on my pillow. She looked so peaceful and angelic. I really enjoyed being around her and being in her embrace. My main concern is how she feels about me though. I don't know if she sees me as a romantic possibility or she just enjoys having me there as a guy friend who she can feel safe around. Another thing that is important to me is that if we were to date, I would want her parents to know that I would treat her like gold. I would cherish her. I would never want to mistreat her in anyway. It's odd but I just can't really describe how I feel about her. Words seem to fall short. It's a descriptive injustice is what it is. I guess the only thing I can do is go with the flow and continue examining if there is anything there. Right now has been sucking pretty bad because I want to get it out and let her know but I just don't want to freak her out if she doesn't feel the same way. I have learned that I shouldn't really worry too much because everything will work itself out. I just hope that there is a possible future between the two of us. All I can do is wait and find out.